There's No Place Like Home

I've become painstakingly aware of the fact that I've become a bit boring lately. I think life has been burning me out and it's beginning to show. This is obvious not only because my readership here is going down, but also because of my interactions with others. People tend to reflect each other and I have to say, I'm not liking what I'm putting out there. I'm putting this in writing because it forces me to buck up live life. It's always a must to challenge oneself, and what better way to do it than to let others hold you to it.

Speaking of others holding me to things, I am also aware that my Thailand blogging has dropped right off the map. In the meantime, I did get pictures printed and into an actual tangible photo album. I will, however continue on when there is time. Be looking for one possibly even today.

What am I doing to relieve stress and get myself out of this rut? I am finally getting to work more at the job that I love. I am spending more time with friends that will be leaving the country soon, and those who just got back from their summer adventures. And the one thing that I know will clear my soul is the fact that I am leaving to go home for an entire week tomorrow. I am so lonely for my family it's almost ridiculous. There's nothing that has made me realize how much I need them more than a combination of not being able to see them for 5 months at a time and being out of the country. And this week is my Grandfather's 90th birthday. Who could miss that?

In environmental education related news, I applied for and did not receive a job at my current place of employment as the lead instructor. I am not deterred though, a good friend of mine who is incredibly capable received it and I'm happy for him. This means I don't deal with the scheduling mess, and I will be applying for the job I really want as a naturalist later this year.

In addition, I must also commit to my research paper that will determine the receipt of my Master's degree. This is something that I can't wait to have completed but also feel as if I am totally stuck on how to make it happen. I suppose at this point, it's all about setting out objectives and achieving them one by one rather than looking at the entire picture at once.

Thought for the day: What is it that makes us so anxious about upcoming events, both good and bad? Is the anxiety simply an evolutionary response to help us focus, or should we really just lay back and relax?